Tuesday, November 29, 2011

I haven't forgotten, it seems like only yesterday..

Tonight and got into my pajamas and has some supper and contemplated starting a puzzle I bought but decided I really needed to catch up on blogging and writing letters and well...sleep.  I had my last dinner party of the year Sunday night, it was incredible!  Everyone had a blast and of course there was enough food for a small Army!  My first love was driving through Oklahoma on the way to a new job in Monterey, CA and stayed over and was able to meet my friends and we caught up on the last 19 + years and it was really, really nice.  I found out today that my best friend Angie is coming to stay Christmas weekend and that really made my day because I really didn't want to intrude on my friends and their families because I don't have one of my own.  So this weekend this group I am a part of is having a football party Saturday night so I will be attending church Sunday instead of my normal Saturday night service, and next weekend is my company Christmas party, the weekend after that I am hosting a baby shower for a co-worker at my besty Alecia's house in Broken Arrow, then the next weekend is Christmas, and the weekend after is New Years and my group is having a huge party so my time is toast.  My private life has really taken on a life of it's on, and I am really enjoying it,  the attention doesn't suck, not going to lie; once I took of my blinders I suddenly saw all the possibilities life has to offer, and the view is VERY nice :~)

I admit I had given serious thought to having a baby, I took my age and marital status and other factors into consideration and decided it probably wasn't a good idea, and that I would have to give up on the idea of having a family of my own, so I will embrace my solidarity and make the best of it.  I am really content with this little home I've worked so hard to create for myself, comfortable and welcoming but nice.  My cats keep me company and I am open to dating now and people say I am more approachable and that makes me happy.

I am behind on my Netflix and need to watch the Iron Man 1 disc I have, so I can watch instantly Iron Man 2, in time for The Avengers to come out, I am such a nerd, I love it, cannot wait for Kung Fu Panda to come out on dvd, and I've been to see Breaking Dawn twice and don't put it past me to see it a third time.  Work has been insanely busy so much so that I hardly notice time passing and the next thing I know it's 5 and time to go home. 

I am going to resist the temptation to get nervous about what might happen in the future, like when is the other shoe going to drop, like I know I have no right to be this happy, without the balance of something bad, to take away from my joy.

I miss my son Christopher so much and wish that he would call or text me or Facebook me or something but he is a senior in high school and has a life of his own, but I just wish he would let me be a part of it even if it is only is some small measure, something is better than nothing on that topic.

I better stop here or this will turn into a short novel; my friend ate at Denny's today, and had moons over my hammy, and said "thanks, Sam, all I can do is think of you now"; I had to laugh my butt off!

XBOX 360 with Kinect

Further proof no one listens to me, not even my XBOX!  I tell it to play, pause or whatever and it completely ignores me!  What's next my iphone 4 won't make my calls if it doesn't like who I am calling?  I really want to master my technology, it frustrating when my machines that are designed to make my life easier only succeed in making it frustrating.  I am still trying to figure out how to delete stuff off my iPhones iPod, I miss the blinking 12:00 on my vcr, now THAT submitted to my will!!!

Monday, November 28, 2011

Best laid plans..

The road to hell is paved with good intentions they say, I concur.  As this year wraps up I am taking stock of my life and what I've done this year to become the person I strive to be, someone my parents can be proud of; someone I can be proud of.  I tried not to let my feelings get the best of me, I tried not to get angry when I felt like I was being attacked or provoked; I tried to think before I spoke and to try to imagine how others felt because of the way I behaved or the words I spoke.  I tried to remain positive despite how each situation looked at the outset.  I tried to be the friend others needed me to be, and mostly I wanted to become more flexible and let others control things, and shockingly it felt great.  I am happier than I've ever been, I am fulfilled and I am blessed.  I know a contentment I didn't think possible before, now I can let things go where before I would obsess about what I could have said or done to change the ultimate outcome, the freedom I've attained because of this epiphany is phenomenal.  I'm not perfect, I won't ever be, but I can constantly set goals to try and become a better person than I was the day before.  I like what I see in the mirror now, that's new for me.  I love how much my life has changed because I opened myself up to it's possibilities, and now I see what I've been missing.

I am happy, I am loved, I am blessed.

Pass the chocolate chip cookies...

Amazing weekend!

Food and friends and fun, this weekend was quite possibly the best weekend to date. I never thought I could be this happy!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

First foray into Zumba

I heard about Zumba from an old friend Sabrina Lemons "who also has a blog on this site", Sabrina is an instructor as well an inspiration to me!  Sabrina has three children, a husband, and is also a student; yet still finds time to be an instructor and an active fundraiser for such great causes, and I just don't know how she does it.  That having been said, when Bree told me about Zumba, I was curious because there are SO many fitness fads out there that I am hesitant to try anything new outside of my normal work out regime.  So I decided to enlist my friend Alecia to join me last weekend for the Zumbathon in Owasso for the Susan G. Komen fundraiser, to just sit in the bleachers and observe and see if it was something I was seriously interested in pursuing. 

Zumbathons are typically 1 hour to 1 1/2 long with a color theme, pink for breast cancer, blue for Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation, etc..and they are held in gymnasiums or large venues (normal everyday classes are held in gyms as well, or at your local church or fitness club), anyway the colors of the outfits that the people were wearing were so bright and vivid and fun that it really caught my eye, also I found it noteworthy that each individual wore unique clothes despite the color theme, that were complimentary to his/her body type and personality, people wore everything from their own work out clothes, to Zumbawear, which is sold through an individuals instructor or online at the Zumba website, or through people who resell their clothes because they have lost so much weight from doing Zumba they no longer fit!  I saw cute cheerleader skirts, Capri's, cargo pants, yoga pants, shirts, razor backs, tee shirts, and all sorts of other Zumba designed clothes that I thought to participate if only to wear the nifty outfits; lame but true. 

People also colored their hair with chunks of pink in support of the cause, and I thought that was a really fun way to show support.  Water and snacks are provided throughout the entire 2 hours dance marathon, don't think aerobics, this is not aerobics, think going to a club with your friends and dancing in a smoke free environment where people can dance WITHOUT needing a cocktail first for liquid courage.  When the event got under way I was impressed by how the music seemed perfectly synced to each dance led by different instructors as the night progressed.  Now I wondered before going in if it mattered how extensive my dance background was, and as it turns out, it doesn't matter at all because each dance/song has a routine that is initially broken down in such a way that you don't even notice you are learning choreography for an entire dance!  That takes skill my friends!

Now please note that throughout I have been saying people, NOT ladies, for a very specific reason, I have never seen such a wide variety of people in all my life!  Men, women, kids, and teens and even elderly people showed up to represent; it was inspiring; if my Nana can do it so can I!  The time is up before you realize you are drenched in sweat and have burned a thousand calories.

The people at the two Zumbathons I attended were so friendly and welcoming and inclusive and you could tell that each person had a story to tell about how they found Zumba and how it had changed their lives.  You find yourself wanting to be included into this growing community of people who want to have fun and support each other and look great while doing it, and hey did I mention the Oklahoma groups are one of the biggest supporters of amazing causes that affect us all?

So I know that Zumba is everywhere now, popping up in rural communities and being offered in health clubs, but their website shows you where your local classes are, who is teaching and when. and the good news is, I found multiple classes everyday of the week being offered in my area, so I plan to try a bunch of different ones because each instructor is different.

More later, I am going to hit a couple of classes today so I will post more later!

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Anyway

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God;
It was never between you and them anyway.
Mother Theresa