I heard an old flame of mine had two heart attacks at 39, and it really did something to me. I think that coming to terms with the fact that I'll never have my own family has done something to me, forever changed. So I will just be rich and travel I guess? I know now that I love deeply, truly, and in an epic way. It is was Jane that said, "It is not in my nature to love my friends by halves", that is fact.
