Nana's favorite poem

Footprints in the Sand

Footprints in the Sand, a beautiful poem!

One night I dreamed a dream.

As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.

Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.

For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,

One belonging to me and one to my Lord.

After the last scene of my life flashed before me,

I looked back at the footprints in the sand.

I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,

especially at the very lowest and saddest times,

there was only one set of footprints.

This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it. 

"Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,

You'd walk with me all the way.

But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life,

there was only one set of footprints.

I don't understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me." 

He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you

Never, ever, during your trials and testings.

When you saw only one set of footprints,

It was then that I carried you."

Nana is gone.

Nana died yesterday peacefully.

When we grieve a loss that’s close to us, we are part of a small circle of bereavement. Within the circle, life is interrupted, irrevocably altered; outside, the world continues to turn, seemingly un-, or  minimally, affected. At those people, we want to shout, “What is wrong with you? Don’t you understand that everything’s different now?” But we don’t, because we know that though emotionally true, acting out isn’t socially helpful: Railing against personal tragedy helps nothing. As we learn to absorb the grief, to dull its most dangerously sharp edges and begin to coexist with it, we find ways to remember that seem more constructive than painful. But it’s still personal. And it’s still with us, even as we return to what seems — to others — like normal.

Letting go

Moments ago my sister and I decided after much prayer and advisement by the ICU doctors to take our Nana off life support with comfort measures so that she could go be with her God and our father. We said a prayer over the phone and said our goodbyes over speaker.  They say it could be moments to hours.  We ask that you send prayers heavenward as she moves on. I'll be flying in Sunday.

Not good

Update on Nana: she's been in the hospital since last Tuesday and still hasn't woken up since then.  Her lab work looked better but then she had a seizure so they did a MRI and a 24 hour EEG, to which we'll be getting the results on both this afternoon to see if there is any brain activity or not.  The charge nurse told my sister and I that her situation is grave and she's never seen anyone come back from all of this in her entire career.  The nurse said Barbara Sant and I would have a serious decision to make because she can't stay on a ventilator for very much longer and she failed the cpap test when they tried to take her off so she is not able to breathe on her own.  So after we get the results today I will most likely fly down this weekend.  So all in all this is going to be rough on top of really hard so please keep up the prayers. 

Finally home

Phenomenal news

Spoke to my grandmas doctor and he was happy to report that within the last 24 hours my Nana's kidney function and lab levels have improved so much that he is going to cancel the order for dialysis! Next he said that he contacted the lung doctor. so they could take her off the ventilator and take out the breathing tube and he said that she is moving her lower extremities on her own! So it sounds like she is on the road to recovery but not out of the woods; please keep up the prayers and good thoughts. When her kidneys start working should be able to get rid of the medical sedation in her system they've had her under she'll be able to void to get rid of the west Nile virus and the viral meningitis because there are no drugs for that it's simply treating the fever and symptoms.  All in all great news!🙏🎉👏🏽❤️