or sometimes they'll call you and you just don't feel like talking to them
or they'll text and you don't feel that urge to text them right back
when you know you're going to see them you just feel..okay about it
not excited, not bummed, not let down, not elated.
You can usually go an extended period of time without thinking of that person
and you don't feel off kilter or like something is missing
You don't wonder what they're doing and if they're happy
and if they have all they need
You care more for yourself than you do about them
your needs come first
theirs, maybe second or third
You don't have dreams about them that are so vivid you swear they happened
they affect your mood and demeanor
You can encounter someone with the same name and not give it a second thought
every story you hear doesn't remind you of that person in some way
the cologne you catch a scent of in some random public place
as someone walks by doesn't make your heart twinge because it's what they wear
You don't absentmindedly look at every car model and color like theirs to see if it's them
You don't hear a song on the radio and literally tear up because you made love to it or danced to it
You don't get good news and pick up the phone to text or call them only to remember they're not yours anymore if they ever were.
You don't crave their touch, their smell, their kiss, their love, their presence, their laugh, their dickhead attitude; their ability to be goofy and make you laugh.
Except that you do.
Until one day you realize you don't anymore.
You smile at the experience and realize
when you meet the person you are meant for; it'll be infinitely better!
