"Forget about all the reasons why something may not work. You only need to find one good reason why it will." - Dr. Robert Anthony
I have only one life to live, and I have made my choice, and no matter how it turned out, I am glad I tried my hardest. I know where heaven on Earth is.
Things weren't going to end up like before because they were going to be even better.
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Thursday, September 1, 2011
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Up and Down Up and Down
I get it...
Alright I have been giving friendship a lot of thought lately. What is your definition of friendship? How would you describe a true friend? Would you say you've been a true friend for all days, in all ways? How many true friends can you truly say you have? 5-300? I wonder if you were honest, you'd say a select few. Nowadays in our society you are lucky to find ONE spouse to be honest, loyal and faithful much less 20 plus people who you know would go to the mat for you, sacrificing whatever they had to make sure you were okay. That is my definition of a true friend. I think this is because as the Bible tells us, Greater love hath no man; that lay down his life for his friend. Well since my father believed in setting an example I now understand why I set my bar so bloody high.
Here's the thing though, to be human is to be fallible. Humans are weak and susceptible to external influences, and pressures, and feelings. I often joke and say I have definitely been loves bitch, but only once! Something else my dad taught me was to do unto others as I would have done unto myself; Luke 6:31 and I can honestly say that I try to hold to that. My problem is that when I am hurt, my first instinct is to hurt back, because all I've known is violence, and rage and aggression since my dad died; and people saying "I only do this because I love you". Well I have a hard time controlling my passionate feelings and emotions and yes sometimes I lose the battle and react instead of cooling off then dealing with whatever. I cause additional damage or make a situation worse when I speak out of hurt, and all anger is in my opinion is amplified sadness. I don't think I am the first or last person to be guilty of doing that, do you? I try to make amends when that is possible, but words once spoken alas cannot be taken back, the damage is permanent.
Most of my closest friends I've known for a minimum of 20 years, the rest well over that; and those people, I would gladly take a bullet for, and that is not a metaphor. I know these people and what they are capable of, good, bad or indifferent I am their friend, nothing they said or did could make me love them any less than I do. I know that they know all that I am, all that I have done, and they choose to love and support me also, and to be in my life and kick my butt when I need it; and I return the favor. Where I grew up people looked out for each other, because no one else did. Not all of us grew up with the picket fence, curfews, or rules. I know I am here today because I had some of the best people behind me watching my back, and trust and believe it wasn't any blood relative.
I guess I take friendship seriously because my friends ARE my family. If I tell you I love you, it's for life; not until you piss me off. Just because I say you hurt me it doesn't mean I don't worry about you or think about you or pray for you. Even if I don't see some of my friends for a year or more, I know they are only a phone call or text away, and they know that also.
I wish I could see my dearest friends more often, but we are all scattered to the winds and busy doing the day to day grind. I just wanted to take a moment and say I am grateful for those people who have stuck by me through thick and thin, and it is my sincerest hope that you can say that I have been the friend you needed in your dark times.
Alright I have been giving friendship a lot of thought lately. What is your definition of friendship? How would you describe a true friend? Would you say you've been a true friend for all days, in all ways? How many true friends can you truly say you have? 5-300? I wonder if you were honest, you'd say a select few. Nowadays in our society you are lucky to find ONE spouse to be honest, loyal and faithful much less 20 plus people who you know would go to the mat for you, sacrificing whatever they had to make sure you were okay. That is my definition of a true friend. I think this is because as the Bible tells us, Greater love hath no man; that lay down his life for his friend. Well since my father believed in setting an example I now understand why I set my bar so bloody high.
Here's the thing though, to be human is to be fallible. Humans are weak and susceptible to external influences, and pressures, and feelings. I often joke and say I have definitely been loves bitch, but only once! Something else my dad taught me was to do unto others as I would have done unto myself; Luke 6:31 and I can honestly say that I try to hold to that. My problem is that when I am hurt, my first instinct is to hurt back, because all I've known is violence, and rage and aggression since my dad died; and people saying "I only do this because I love you". Well I have a hard time controlling my passionate feelings and emotions and yes sometimes I lose the battle and react instead of cooling off then dealing with whatever. I cause additional damage or make a situation worse when I speak out of hurt, and all anger is in my opinion is amplified sadness. I don't think I am the first or last person to be guilty of doing that, do you? I try to make amends when that is possible, but words once spoken alas cannot be taken back, the damage is permanent.
Most of my closest friends I've known for a minimum of 20 years, the rest well over that; and those people, I would gladly take a bullet for, and that is not a metaphor. I know these people and what they are capable of, good, bad or indifferent I am their friend, nothing they said or did could make me love them any less than I do. I know that they know all that I am, all that I have done, and they choose to love and support me also, and to be in my life and kick my butt when I need it; and I return the favor. Where I grew up people looked out for each other, because no one else did. Not all of us grew up with the picket fence, curfews, or rules. I know I am here today because I had some of the best people behind me watching my back, and trust and believe it wasn't any blood relative.
I guess I take friendship seriously because my friends ARE my family. If I tell you I love you, it's for life; not until you piss me off. Just because I say you hurt me it doesn't mean I don't worry about you or think about you or pray for you. Even if I don't see some of my friends for a year or more, I know they are only a phone call or text away, and they know that also.
I wish I could see my dearest friends more often, but we are all scattered to the winds and busy doing the day to day grind. I just wanted to take a moment and say I am grateful for those people who have stuck by me through thick and thin, and it is my sincerest hope that you can say that I have been the friend you needed in your dark times.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Just the two of us..
Feeling the groove this morning..I need to make Hobo Pies for this week, I need motivation!
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