Baked potato, hold the salt

Day in day out doing what's expected, trying to do what I think I'm supposed to do. Ever been surrounded by people and felt completely alone, or find yourself thinking; if only so and so were here..this would be the perfect moment? I stood in a kitchen on the fourth and thought, so and so would have loved that joke I just thought of but didn't say out loud because not everyone appreciates my attempt at humor and they get all butt hurt. Do you think the powers that be keep revealing someone to you over and over? Do you think they're trying to tell you something; or am I being overly alert to that person and all things related to them? Ugh, this s u c k s. Gotta let it go, gotta give up hope the phone is going to make noise, gotta let the love fade, the friendship, the BEST friendship ever dim in my mind. Must focus on anything bad or negative so as not to be tempted to pick up the phone and dial the digits that damage.

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Working late again this evening but I won't have to work any OT until 07/13 so I am looking forward to making plans.

Gooey Butter Cake take 2

Let's Party!

If I don't get called in to work I am headed to Paddock's to do some party prep cooking, and will post pics shortly!  I am going to make some Lil Cheese Smokies wrapped in Butter Crescent Rolls, Bisquick Sausage Balls, some Hamburger Queso, Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookies, and my now famous Gooey Butter Cake.  I guess we are going to have quite the view of the fireworks tonight from the house in Broken Arrow, and I am really looking forward to it!  I am interested to see if my friends know the way around a grill or not also, 7 minutes on my steak total please!  

This morning I am remembering watching fireworks with my mom in 1985 that they were launching off the bridge.  Have a happy and safe 4th!  God Bless America!

Truth is

COTM This is my favorite song we sing at church, and why I love to go every Saturday!

There is nothing in the world as uplifting as the COTM band!

Communication is a funny thing

If I say I love you, that's what I feel.  If I say I miss you, THAT's what I feel.  If I say I have faith in you, it's because I do.  If I tell you I was honest, and never lied, take it as fact, I have no reason or motivation for lying to you, if I let you into my heart, my life, my soul, trust me it's a big deal, because there are only a select few who can say as much.  I am passionate and I am a fighter, always have been, always will be.  I am strong and there is nothing you can do to me that hasn't already been done, that I haven't already survived or overcome.  Take that as a good thing, I'll forgive you when you break my heart, or when you let me down, because I know what it is to be human, because guess what, so am I.  To err is human...Don't judge me or look down on me because you aren't better than I am, and I am no better than you; we are equals, we're all equals.  Don't worry about me and mine, worry about you and yours.  You do you, I'll do me.  I am not a quitter, I am perseverance personified, I am diligent, and I love fiercely and I am loyal, ask any of my friends if there isn't anything I won't do for them if it is within my power to do so.  I've only ever been in love in my life once, that is saying a lot; life is not a game I am playing, I have a purpose and a point and I won't allow anyone to waste my time, and I won't waste yours, it's disrespectful.