Inextricably Wednesday 11/23/2005 by Samara Sant

 Cannot forget, destinies intertwined eternally.

Souls altered and enraptured and endeared.

Invisible currents travelling through sinewy muscles,

Pulse quickening tempo

knowing a presence is present simply by sensing it in the vicinity

Like two threads became inextricably interwoven in a complex tapestry

no distinguishable end of one to the other now.

PAC

My volunteer activities are kicking into high gear with the holiday's quickly approaching. This weekend I worked for the play "November", and it was funny and chock full of poignant moments.  I am really looking forward to A Charlie Brown Christmas and A Christmas Carol, and then the Tulsa Ballet festivities kick off, but not before Christmas Train starts at Church on The Move, and I am excited to get dressed up in period clothing and have fun entertaining the guests with my Link friends this year.  Winterfest starts soon also and time seems to be flying by.

Alright now on to Twilight stuff, I leave work until 11 on Thursday, and then I'm going to meet my friend (who'll get there early to save me a seat on the top row center section) at the Broken Arrow Cinemark for the kickoff marathon that starts at noon and will wrap up around midnight, then we're going back to my place to catch some z's then we're getting up and heading to TCC where I'll take my reading and comp tests and head to breakfast after that, then chill at my place for the rest of Friday until the rest of our friends get off work, and then BACK to the theater to watch part 2 again.

This weekend is also my good friend Sharon's birthday and I am fairly confident that will mean going out to at least one adult beverage establishment.  I've decided to take piano lessons and at least one acting class through TCC as an elective because it'll make me happy and I am all about the self enrichment these days.  I've been studying for the test Friday and I am surprised with everything that stuck with me from high school, as I was taking this timed computer test for math, science, and geography; I was able to answer most of the questions correctly without thinking, I just relaxed and took a deep breath and cleared my mind and I did great.  I think that studying and my enthusiasm for learning that I've always had, although not ever applied really, will help me to not only succeed in school but really excel. 

Update on my Roku purchase, it is an awesome but evil device that I MUST not allow to take over my life.  Speaking of tech, my living room TV which I had convinced myself was possessed Friday, turned out to be a known Samsung issue of the manual volume button turning itself down.  I was able to Google the fix and one of my brilliant IT friends came over and performed surgery and the good news is that it'll live and I won't have to replace it, yay!  I've decided to buy a Samsung Chromebook for school this weekend after much research and a recommendation from my aforementioned IT friend, however I am hard pressed to find one available to purchase in stores or even online, but that isn't shocking given the $249.00 sticker price.

My office will be closed next Thursday and Friday so I'll be doing just a smidgen of Black Friday shopping but other than that it'll be R&R and probably more than a couple of good books.  Just like last year I am trying to decide if I should buy a tree or not.

I am beyond excited about school starting up in January, and I can hardly stand it.  I believe I will reach my potential after all.

Glimpse by Samara Sant

Unexpectedly the curtain is pulled aside for a brief moment I see my favorite upon the stage shining brighter than any heavenly body more beautiful than any Renoir, her eyes hold such promise for her future, and then just as suddenly the curtain falls back into place, but the glimpse of that smile sustains.

Storm

You were the last person that I ever wanted to see again. Ever. And you were the only person that I ever wanted to see again.

Daggers deep by Samara Sant

You never anticipate the cut from your true love, the dagger slid gently into my heart and pierced my soul and then you twisted the blade and I bled until I could bleed no more. It's the wound that will never heal, it was fatal.

RHIT

The desire to be the first in my family to get an education and the sense of pride I know I'll feel knowing my parents would be unbelievably proud of me is what is spurring me on.  I know the road is long, and it will oftentimes be difficult and I'll wonder if I can go on, but I know that I will persevere, because I am a Sant and that's what we do, we fight for our heart's desire and we never give up; because ultimately we know that absolutely nothing worth having comes easy.  TCC course I'll be taking for my Associate Degree, notice I have ZERO math to take!

Starbucks

People are here together, yet alone. They are sitting together but they're not present. The Internet connection instead of the human connection. Didn't you both come here to get out of the house, be around people? I'm perplexed by the "surrounded by people but still all alone" paradigm. Trippy. Is anyone ever present in the moment anymore? No wonder people seem so sad and alone, if only they'd look up from they're device they'd see they weren't really, they only perceived themselves to be. Or maybe I have it wrong and there is just a massive volume of homework done at your local Starbucks. Social anthropology is fascinating, and a part of me wonders if anyone else here is pondering the imponderable, going through some existential crisis. Or maybe it's just my imagination, running away with me or some other 70's song lyric.