Onward and upward

Ok so I've regrouped after the disappointment of learning I wouldn't be able to go to school after all.  I am now focused on what I'm going to do moving forward.  Firstly, I think I'll go get my nails done since I don't have to keep them short for class. I was able to go to the Summer ladies Bible study last night at Church that COTM is hosting and that was a lot of fun. 

So what's next for Samara?  If I can't go to school what do I do with all my free time until my lease expires and I am free to leave Oklahoma?  I really think I want to follow my initial dream of moving to Montana; before last winter happened, and this school option surfaced. 

I need to accept that I have no future in Tulsa, that I wasn't asked to wait, that I was encouraged to seek a life elsewhere.  So I thinks it's time I follow my own path. I absolutely fell in love with Montana when I was there in December, I knew as soon as I got off the plane that I wanted to move there, that I could be unbelievably happy there.  I have really good friends there, and friends that are more family to me than my actual family ever was.

I just want to be in a place that makes me happy just "being" there.  I am no longer happy in Oklahoma.  Too many memories that won't fade, too many ghosts; too many dreams of a future that will never be; have been destroyed.  Always in the back of my mind through this painful loss I recently suffered, there's been the memory of the peace that I felt in Montana, a contentment I think I need to help me move past what I experienced here.

I think a fresh start is the best thing, and what better place than somewhere I can see myself living out the rest of my life?  Let's see, snow, check. cold weather, check. mild summer and non existent spring, check. majestic mountain ranges as far as the eye can see, check. small town feel, and groovy locals, check. amazing job and friends and family, check check. oh and don't forget the snowmobiles and snow coaches and the horseback riding on the trails at night, yep sign me up.