Finally home

Phenomenal news

Spoke to my grandmas doctor and he was happy to report that within the last 24 hours my Nana's kidney function and lab levels have improved so much that he is going to cancel the order for dialysis! Next he said that he contacted the lung doctor. so they could take her off the ventilator and take out the breathing tube and he said that she is moving her lower extremities on her own! So it sounds like she is on the road to recovery but not out of the woods; please keep up the prayers and good thoughts. When her kidneys start working should be able to get rid of the medical sedation in her system they've had her under she'll be able to void to get rid of the west Nile virus and the viral meningitis because there are no drugs for that it's simply treating the fever and symptoms.  All in all great news!🙏🎉👏🏽❤️

Palatial palace

I'm at a beautiful hotel, in a luxury suite watching a movie on my iPad that Shawn rented for me, and waiting for my PaPa Johns pizza and wishing we were back home so I could stress with my cats in our house that soothes me.  Poor Shawn, I love that he is being so great about my literally checking out of our little mini vacation and just sitting by the phone.  My Nana is like my second mom, she's never just been a grandparent.  I can't imagine a world without her stubborn self in it.

Oklahoma bound

Just got update from doctor on Nana; positive for viral meningitis; positive for west Nile.  Kidney failure, on ventilator dialysis on Monday, possible trach and tube if she wakes up.  Doctor says we are on day five of a possible two week journey all based on her kidneys everything is based on that.  So all in all, not good.  Prayers please.

Best laid plans

Stopped for the night on our way to Vegas in Orem, Utah.  Thanks to a true friend I was alerted a hour ago that my Nana is in ICU in Tulsa for the last four days and is under medical sedation with a breathing tube.  Please send prayers.  Based on what the doctors tell me tomorrow I might be headed to Inola. — with Shawn at Hampton Inn & Suites Orem.

Vegas baby!

We are head to Vegas in a hour and it'll take about 12 1/2 hours to drive down.  Luckily we are travelling in style and comfort in Shawn's Xterra where I can just relax and recline my seat and sleep.  I'm at least five days DPO and on cycle day 20 (I say more but I am going to go by this trying to conceive app), so implantation should or will have occurred by this Sunday and I can test by next Friday or so since Aunt Flo is due 9/13.  I never wanted to got to Vegas, like ever in my life but Shawn really enjoys it there and we are staying at Caesar's Palace in a suite for free with all his points. 

So our plan is to stop in Salt Lake and get some Krispy Kreme because ours in Montana doesn't open until the end of October, and grab a Subway sandwich and then we'll stop and stay in a hotel on the way since we aren't due to check in until tomorrow at 11 a.m. but once we check into Caesar's I'm going to Bath & Body Works in the hotel mall and picking up our Lemoncello olive oil soap and then to Build-A-Bear  to make the (soon to be) baby it's first bear and then I'll be in the hotel room reading on my app free Kindle Fire that Shawn got me and enjoying the a/c since it's 110 there versus 45 here right now; staying germ free.  I agreed to go on one fancy dinner date with Shawn, but I guess I should pass on going dancing like I wanted.  I was thinking about going to their adult arcades, because I just don't GET gambling, but alas no adult beverage for this possible mommy to be. 

I was going to see the Titanic exhibition, and the Shark Reef, which I still might, but shouldn't I try to stay as healthy as possible for Abbey/Finnian?  I downloaded a ton of new parenting books, because I have read at least one a day for the past three weeks.  I am particularly interested in learning about attachment parenting or secure attachment parenting; in essence never putting them down except to shower or put them in their co-sleeper.  I plan on working from home after maternity leave so that we don't have to put our baby in day care, and stay with him/her until pre-school.  Shawn is allowed 15 days paternity leave which I am grateful for but why not six weeks like the mother? 

I hope Shawn's family comes to visit after the baby is born since I am lacking in that department.  I've never focused so singularly than I have on every little feeling inside to see if I can feel implantation.  Any symptom I feel is scrutinized beyond all reasoning.  I feel like I have the dream job, the dream partner, the dream home, heck I even love our paid off vehicles!  This won't complete our lives, simply enhance it.  So dear reader picture me in a suite with the a/c on 60 degrees and my feet propped up on pillows reading to my heart's content and enjoying brief boyfriend visitation in between his table games.  Mini-vacations with your partner means doing whatever it is you want and visiting in between each other's plans.  I am feeling peaceful and content, and really excited.  Please send prayers and good thoughts my way.  Here's wishing everyone Baby Dust!

Stay off WebMD

So my boyfriend and I are officially trying to start a family so I started this week long journey of blood tests, the obligatory annual, and a mammogram tomorrow.  Here at St. Pete's where I work we have what's called the Patient Portal where you can get test results.  Many of you may know how impatient I am so when I kept checking my results and nothing was there I decided to call medical records and ask if they had anything on me yet, and of course some results had come in and were being sent to my doctor; so you are able to get a copy of those if you sign a medical release; which of course I did.  BAD IDEA.  AWFUL.  I just assumed after working for doctors my whole career I could read the jibberish that is test results.  Wrong.  So I go back to my desk and start trying to decipher the hieroglyphs on WebMD and successfully convince myself I am dying of some horrible disease and that I will never be able to be a mom and have my little family I've dreamt of forever.  Alright, so I call my doctor and they tell me she is in clinic for another couple of hours but that she will call me back. 

The wait was horrendous, and the more I thought about it the more upset I became.  So my doctor calls exactly when they said she would and she's talking to me like she hadn't gotten the message about me already seeing some of the results.  "So Sam I got your results back on some of the tests, and all is well and I see no problem with you conceiving naturally and there was no issue on your lab or ultrasound".  I replied "What, but I read the report and it says..", she responds with "How did you see the results", and I explained I couldn't wait, she said, "Stay the hell off WebMD Sam"!  lol  So yeah, freak out much?  WHEW but hey at least I know I am good to go, and 100% healthy as I assumed until my curiosity got the best of me.

Moral of the story:  Curiosity gave the cat an anxiety attack, but didn't kill it!

So we will know by 9/15 if we are pregnant this cycle, and if we are; it'll be due 5/22/16 and named either Abbey-Marin or Finnian-Elijah.  I already have our Pinterest and Amazon wish lists started!  I told Shawn about my desire to do a pregnancy Vlog from live pregnancy test to the full birth but I will keep up my posts here throughout what I hope will be a healthy pregnancy.