So my boyfriend and I are officially trying to start a family so I started this week long journey of blood tests, the obligatory annual, and a mammogram tomorrow. Here at St. Pete's where I work we have what's called the Patient Portal where you can get test results. Many of you may know how impatient I am so when I kept checking my results and nothing was there I decided to call medical records and ask if they had anything on me yet, and of course some results had come in and were being sent to my doctor; so you are able to get a copy of those if you sign a medical release; which of course I did. BAD IDEA. AWFUL. I just assumed after working for doctors my whole career I could read the jibberish that is test results. Wrong. So I go back to my desk and start trying to decipher the hieroglyphs on WebMD and successfully convince myself I am dying of some horrible disease and that I will never be able to be a mom and have my little family I've dreamt of forever. Alright, so I call my doctor and they tell me she is in clinic for another couple of hours but that she will call me back.
The wait was horrendous, and the more I thought about it the more upset I became. So my doctor calls exactly when they said she would and she's talking to me like she hadn't gotten the message about me already seeing some of the results. "So Sam I got your results back on some of the tests, and all is well and I see no problem with you conceiving naturally and there was no issue on your lab or ultrasound". I replied "What, but I read the report and it says..", she responds with "How did you see the results", and I explained I couldn't wait, she said, "Stay the hell off WebMD Sam"! lol So yeah, freak out much? WHEW but hey at least I know I am good to go, and 100% healthy as I assumed until my curiosity got the best of me.
Moral of the story: Curiosity gave the cat an anxiety attack, but didn't kill it!
So we will know by 9/15 if we are pregnant this cycle, and if we are; it'll be due 5/22/16 and named either Abbey-Marin or Finnian-Elijah. I already have our Pinterest and Amazon wish lists started! I told Shawn about my desire to do a pregnancy Vlog from live pregnancy test to the full birth but I will keep up my posts here throughout what I hope will be a healthy pregnancy.
Online Diary of my adventures.
Thursday, August 27, 2015
Thursday, August 20, 2015
It's been too long
The smoke in Helena is so bad that the air quality hazard is up on the Weather Channel app. I've never encountered anything like feeling you're in the middle of a fire but not seeing flames. I opened the window to our bedroom and said to Shawn, "it's like waking up next to a campfire, the smoke is so thick and smells so strong". Now if you know me, you know that I buy these little bundles of wood and burn them to get that smell, so imagine my shock when I wake up and for miles around my city it's smoke filled and with that same pungent smell. What saddens me the most is the land that will be scarred for quite some time as it heals. I hate to think of how the fires are displacing my beloved forest creatures. Since I've moved to Montana, a full year ago now I've seen three moose, a mountain goat, a massive heard of deer in an open field (and occasionally right in my front yard or meandering down the middle of the street in downtown Helena) and a ton of elk.
I had my first nail biting experience when two weeks ago this Saturday Shawn and I went for a drive in his 2010 Nissan Xterrra that is completely paid off mind you. We were exploring a random road as we often do, when all of a sudden the road disappears and we are driving in a washed out road with no ability to back out or turn around as we are completely surrounded by dense forest all around us. This road went from smooth and car safe, to MAYBE meant for a dirt bike or four wheeler. For miles and miles we were tossed around trying to navigate razor sharp jutting jagged rocks, worrying that any moment one of the downed tree logs that kept getting stuck under the truck, or super sharp rocks were going to pierce the gas tank or some other vital undercarriage car part as we literally kept being slammed down on the rocks for MILES to the point that the side curtain air bags deployed on us on one of the unforgiving and particulary ugly portions, and that is saying something. Later we would examine the vehicle to find a massive dent on my passenger door side by the underside of the truck, so imagine how hard we had to slam down to dent metal.
One of the most difficult things was that our road literally disappeared on the map and on our gps phone apps, so we had no clue how far we had to navigate this practically impassible road. Two hours basically. Now it's not like we planned to go off roading, no we truly didn't. Shawn and I both have extensive intentional off roading experience and know better than to go off alone without backup on an untraversed road in a vehicle that was almost unable to make it through. Shawn was in a tee and shorts and Birkenstocks, and I was just in leggings and a tee and flip flops.
Now Shawn is an experienced back country hiker and camper going on annual ten day Manventures as he and his friends refer to them, parking at a trailhead and packing in their gear for a eight mile a day trek, so he would get out and scout a mile ahead to see how best to drive his truck through this evil road. Once as he was getting out of the truck to check a nasty part of the road he gashed his forehead open and had blood pouring down his face, and he just blew it off, he's made of tough stuff. At one point when I was lucky to get signal I posted on Facebook "Lost" in case we didn't manage to get out in the truck and had to hike out in bear infested back woods without bear spray someone would know where to at least start looking. My friends would later post, "Really, or Seriously"? I was like "who jokes about that"?! I don't cry wolf folks! At one point we had to go over this thrown together rotted, termite infested log bridge over a raging river, with a vertical climb right after it, and I just looked at Shawn and said "go as fast a possible"! Long story longer we finally made it out and we realized we had went in one gigantic circle! I told Shawn I'd like to hike back in there and put up hazard signs saying "Turn back now, not fit for vehicle" or "last chance to turn around" or "lift kit and back up required"! So luckily the truck still has full coverage and it's in the shop getting fixed, but we are looking at almost three to four weeks before we get it back.
I was approved to be a Big Sister and may have connected with a Little Sis so I am really excited about that. Shawn and I went to Malta, Montana this past weekend to see my sister and her two sons and her daughter-in-law and Robbie's new son (he now has two little girls and a boy). There is NOTHING in Malta except mosquitoes and the Edgewater motel which was actually alright, rustic like the Village Inn at Glacier National Park, except the Edgewater had a flat screen and a/c, but I loved the Village Inn more, for the view and it's lack of electronics and mod cons. Truly, who knew I'd love that so much.
It looks like we are headed to Las Vegas, as I've never been and Shawn is a pro on the tables apparently, so that should be a lot of fun, perhaps they have bingo, I do love bingo, especially if I am playing for kitchen toys. I hear they have some great shows in Vegas also so we'll have to check those out as well.
All is quiet and peaceful on the homefront, and I really couldn't be happier. I hope the same can be said for you and yours.
I had my first nail biting experience when two weeks ago this Saturday Shawn and I went for a drive in his 2010 Nissan Xterrra that is completely paid off mind you. We were exploring a random road as we often do, when all of a sudden the road disappears and we are driving in a washed out road with no ability to back out or turn around as we are completely surrounded by dense forest all around us. This road went from smooth and car safe, to MAYBE meant for a dirt bike or four wheeler. For miles and miles we were tossed around trying to navigate razor sharp jutting jagged rocks, worrying that any moment one of the downed tree logs that kept getting stuck under the truck, or super sharp rocks were going to pierce the gas tank or some other vital undercarriage car part as we literally kept being slammed down on the rocks for MILES to the point that the side curtain air bags deployed on us on one of the unforgiving and particulary ugly portions, and that is saying something. Later we would examine the vehicle to find a massive dent on my passenger door side by the underside of the truck, so imagine how hard we had to slam down to dent metal.
One of the most difficult things was that our road literally disappeared on the map and on our gps phone apps, so we had no clue how far we had to navigate this practically impassible road. Two hours basically. Now it's not like we planned to go off roading, no we truly didn't. Shawn and I both have extensive intentional off roading experience and know better than to go off alone without backup on an untraversed road in a vehicle that was almost unable to make it through. Shawn was in a tee and shorts and Birkenstocks, and I was just in leggings and a tee and flip flops.
Now Shawn is an experienced back country hiker and camper going on annual ten day Manventures as he and his friends refer to them, parking at a trailhead and packing in their gear for a eight mile a day trek, so he would get out and scout a mile ahead to see how best to drive his truck through this evil road. Once as he was getting out of the truck to check a nasty part of the road he gashed his forehead open and had blood pouring down his face, and he just blew it off, he's made of tough stuff. At one point when I was lucky to get signal I posted on Facebook "Lost" in case we didn't manage to get out in the truck and had to hike out in bear infested back woods without bear spray someone would know where to at least start looking. My friends would later post, "Really, or Seriously"? I was like "who jokes about that"?! I don't cry wolf folks! At one point we had to go over this thrown together rotted, termite infested log bridge over a raging river, with a vertical climb right after it, and I just looked at Shawn and said "go as fast a possible"! Long story longer we finally made it out and we realized we had went in one gigantic circle! I told Shawn I'd like to hike back in there and put up hazard signs saying "Turn back now, not fit for vehicle" or "last chance to turn around" or "lift kit and back up required"! So luckily the truck still has full coverage and it's in the shop getting fixed, but we are looking at almost three to four weeks before we get it back.
I was approved to be a Big Sister and may have connected with a Little Sis so I am really excited about that. Shawn and I went to Malta, Montana this past weekend to see my sister and her two sons and her daughter-in-law and Robbie's new son (he now has two little girls and a boy). There is NOTHING in Malta except mosquitoes and the Edgewater motel which was actually alright, rustic like the Village Inn at Glacier National Park, except the Edgewater had a flat screen and a/c, but I loved the Village Inn more, for the view and it's lack of electronics and mod cons. Truly, who knew I'd love that so much.
It looks like we are headed to Las Vegas, as I've never been and Shawn is a pro on the tables apparently, so that should be a lot of fun, perhaps they have bingo, I do love bingo, especially if I am playing for kitchen toys. I hear they have some great shows in Vegas also so we'll have to check those out as well.
All is quiet and peaceful on the homefront, and I really couldn't be happier. I hope the same can be said for you and yours.
Sunday, July 26, 2015
New iPhone 6 plus
Loving my new phone and all its capabilities! Sold my old iPhone for a great price on Craigslist, didn't get as much though because the iPhone 7 is coming out soon; oh well. Point is I'll be able to post far superior pics and vids! Shawn is headed to Colorado for his second Iron Man triathlon Wednesday morning and our house will be too quiet for the week he'll be gone. New experience from tornadoes to grass fires here. Townsend burned so much acreage, and two fires here in Helena in just a couple of days. Glacier, our beloved Glacier thousands of acres are still burning. Loving my job and coworkers and that I literally live next door to work. We discovered a spa called Paws Up in our weekend exploring trip. We were able to get a new roof put on the house before winter, and the downstairs bathroom remodeled. I'm excited about all our plans to really make this house as comfortable as the local B & B's we see around town. Hoping our out of town guests will enjoy the fruits of our labors, God bless Pinterest.
Sunday, July 19, 2015
Thursday, July 9, 2015
Tuesday, July 7, 2015
Happy 22nd Birthday Christopher!
I can't believe it's been 22 years since that Wednesday morning I headed to Kaiser and spent 10 1/2 hours in labor with contrations a minute and a half apart; all natural. I spent most of that time in the shower with the hottest water I could stand aimed at my lower back. I think of you on average 20 times a day and wonder if you're graduating college this year or next and what you want to do in the future. I wonder if you love Santa Cruz as much as your birth father and I did. I wonder if you know where the beach with the "cliff toilet bowl" ocean wave break is. I love and miss you and pray for you every day. I know your happy and healthy and loved and that is what my dream for you was. I also want to send love to your folks who are the single best parents I could've ever chosen for you. Happy Birthday Christopher.
xo
xo
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